Monday, May 17, 2010
I feel like I've been climbing in mountains. Which is fine, a little mountain climbing never hurt anybody. There are people in my life recently that have made me question exactly what my role is, where I should be and what I should be doing. I've had forks in the road and the decision of what path to take. And I chose. I chose the harder way, the one with more rocks and obstacles. But I know that when I get to the top of this mountain, I will know it was the right way. I have been challenged, I have been cursed at, I have had things said to me that were meant to be so soul crushing. And I'm not going to lie and say that I didn't feel every single one of them. But I know that I walked on, with my head high and did not return the same favor.
It's this part of life that sucks. The part that makes you dig deep. Carefully choosing my words, my actions, all the while trying to guard my heart. But it is the journey I am meant to embark on, there will be a lesson in all of this. I'm waiting on what that is. And if all it is is the opportunity to stand tall and know that I believed in myself, then that is lesson enough.